why live?

always depressed got no body to impress or love isn't anyone for me I'm all alone constantly high living life on drugs numbing the pain inside my feelings I am dealing with suicidal thoughts acting like nothing is wrong all a act wondering why am I alive living a life of poverty can't afford to buy my own property can afford to live my life properly probably this is all my fault right I blaim my parents but it is quite apparent no parent made me drop out of school I did nobody made me a drug addict I did I cry I'm a victim but in reality I'm the mother fucking problem in today's society this is why the world has no pitty on me honestly