Hook: And I've been going through hell Caught in a vicious spell Blinded by the lie Crossed course, stumbled and fell I'm feeling so alone I think am bout to explode System overload! Verse 1: Lately I really feel like am stuck in a hole. Fucking depressed, I wanna go to sleep and just be alone. Far from the stress, away from all the burden I shoulder. At times I feel am gonna explode or just suddenly blow up. Cause I conceal a lot in my soul. And even though am dying deep inside I don't let it show. Fuck it! I know a problem shared is half solved but I haven't got The guts to tell someone, I've gotta tell someone Before I lose it. I've been a recluse and with each Passing day it gets harder to live. It's the truth. I'm contemplating, debating on leaving this world. Wanna escape and be free from this misery but It's okay if you don't understand me, honestly sometimes I don't understand me too. I wish I could be as happy's You, but am not. So I sit back With a big smile upon my face hoping they don't see that am hurt... Hook: And I've been going through hell Caught in a vicious spell Blinded by the lie Crossed course, stumbled and fell I'm feeling so alone I think am bout to explode System overload! Verse 2: Once again, I'm talking to walls like they'll respond or they can Hear me. How the fuck did I get to this point? Can't even Stare at my reflection anymore cause the shit is embarrassing. I feel like shit, am self-disappointed. How do I live up to the expectations before me When I keep letting the ones who adore me down? This is My story now, really am sorry. I'm drowning in my sorrow I'm suffocating, I can't breathe! It's like am choking in this ocean of regrets and Emotions, but I just let em think afloat. Why do I act like am fine when I know that deep down Man am going through so much pain? I'm weak and I'm slowly Losing this battle and I don't know how much more I can take. T's like am stuck in a cage, fuck it man! It's hard to explain. My life is a book and my cover's defaced, I guess that's why nobody opens the page. I'm going insane. Hook: And I've been going through hell Caught in a vicious spell Blinded by the lie Crossed course, stumbled and fell I'm feeling so alone I think am bout to explode System overload!