what they'll know soon

lookin back, not long ago i feel like my life was taking away my kids pulled from me theyre smiles, happy times all the times all the times yanked from my life from the very women that once told me that they loved me the most well hell if thats love then u can keep that shit and if id known then what i know now then we wouldnt even have a kid no how i would under no circumstance ever be able to play with a child or anothers life in a fashion like that and i cant believe i ever called any of my babymommas my wife wasted life wasted time wasted thoughts kids that never were allowed to be mine i hate to say it but after all this time i had to own it what it is what it was cause no matter what i did what i tried if anyone ever says dont worry bout it youll get your parenting time dont feed into that shit cause i hate to say it but its a lie now what they will do is garnish your checks doesnt matter if your life then becomes a wreck i promise u they won't enforce visitation w the kids atleast not for a man not dad and ill tell something that shits pretty fkn sad our juditial system ha...is a joke pretty god damn trash and this country has turned to shit and it makes me pretty god damn mad but the one thing that i can say is to my kids just know each and every one of you daddy loves you more then he loves life itself and all of u should forgive your moms for they know not what theyll know later come judgement day theyll be sent somewhere their fkd up asses can sit and rot cause its aparent to be a good mother they were ever taught and they would rather keep u away from me or me away from u