Abyss

I'm falling further into madness every day nobody sees me through the mask I never say, how I'm doing its what's it to ya feel like my life is on the line cuz my anxiety has me thinking I may soon decay pic up the mic and let the lyrics spray I'm like a different person so I get moving and writing these verses, hoping that I can finally quit moping and do something better with this life I've been mysteriously given even though there's curses. I always dream of hearses. mine in fact, why am I like this I think I might just have to end it all what? are you appalled? I'm not a happy go lucky rapper like most of them you would know at all. I'm not a fuckin know it all but I'm ready to blow it all on the people who need it most I aint trying to boast but I think I'm one if the few who would put others before my self, take my own emotions and put them on a shelf, just to make sure that my homies will all be well. I've been in a constant struggle but I cant worry about myself I've got 3 kids with one on the way if my anxiety gets me man i have to get back up and say fuck it try not to kick the bucket, when do i get the time to worry about my mental health it's more important than people think I'm on the brink I'm not okay no more delays i need to get some help to give some help I'm useless in this battle I'm all by myself where do I go from here? I may never know but I cant let this depression drag me down any more, eradicate the fear and learn a lifelong lesson no more of this existential crisis and wondering what my life is.