Disappear

Disapear! nothing can stop me Would you notice if I left Would you even be depressed If I didn't call you Would you even stew Would you wonder if I'm ok If you never heard from me today Would you shed a tear If I was to completely disapear The answer is what i most fear Please don't look at me I'm not the man you want to see Ive only had a brief Time with sobriety And I'm filled with anxiety now that im here all alone in society I have no connection Only seeing deception With the man in my reflection I have no one Just me and my phone im Here all alone My kids and my wife are gone No friends I have no one So my mood desends I'm in this alone In an RV as a home I have no one Sadness fills me As I think of who I use to be Now that I'm here all alone With my little loving family That I can no longer see i only wish death would come and comfort me But I'm still here all alone and my next move is completely unknown none of this bull shit i will ever condone but its something i will have to own before i can move on and get my ass a seat at the throne. feeling like im going to lose it gotta do me like its supposed to be and never lose my shit crazy ass life we all struggling thru it ive seen the awful shit people do nobody ever puts their selves in other people's shoes just gotta Breath and pull myself together nothing is worth my own sanity. mother fuckers will always disappoint and just focus on their own vanity i control nothing outside my own path happiness joy and cash all i can do is treat people not how they do me but how i want them to treat my ass. i just gotta own my shit then grow and never quit looking back at all the Pain im seeing life is loosing all meaning no point in just being never making a Better way to get thru the day quite, u need to watch what you bout to say even with all my wrong im still above you in every motherfuking way nothing you could say will ever stop me i am, going to be the man i want to be. just wait cuz you going to see.