#youdontknowme #selflobotomy #patient #KnN #SL #ydkm #contesttrack #hiphop #thirdeye #openyourmind #keepitstrong100 LYRICS CHORUS My family says im normal thats just stapled to their person Strangers try to put me down like im a glass of bourbon My friends say dont cut yourself youre not a fuckin surgeon Nero Then why am i in trauma and the pain aint reassuring My family says im normal thats just stapled to their person Strangers try to put me down like im a glass of bourbon My friends say you need rescuing youre not a fuckin super hero Then why am i in this chair with thoughts that only seem to ricochet All these people are saying (non compos mentis) The dreams that im having (stupid, foolish, ill conceived) The chances that im soley given (absurdly just preposterous) (Dont judge me till you see the whites of my eyes) People are saying (non compos mentis) The dreams that im having (stupid, foolish, ill conceived) The chances im given (absurdly preposterous) This man is out of his mind! Out of his mind, out of his mind, out of his mind VERSE 1 This house is not a home, no matter where im livin at these days Life seems as if it were planned like ive been scribbled down on paper incase I dont have erasers to be fixing my mistakes I try to read between the lines but its giving me a headache So im sleeping time away and im drinking pain away Im just laying beside myself, prayin for the judgment days I suffocate on all the ways i tell myself im not insane Im running out of reasons not to take my life away But people come up to me, say Ner0 Xed youll probably Be the greatest rapper alive of any man across the seven seas Ya right, thatd be tight, but if i had 1 wish from a klondike To find a bad bitch that squats right or To see the mirror once n know that im life like, (please) I struggle to see, everything thats infront of me Life aint easy, suicidal tendencies Minds a bit shady, rub the lamp for some safety The genie i wish for is calling me crazy Shattered the lamp it stays dark in my head Keep the shards close the glass is my friend Gather amass cuz i need an applause I need positivity, because VERSE 2 I always find myself locked onto an unpleasant train of thoughts Headed down these tracks in my past where the screams outlast and never stop No friends here just tempered relay practice in this perfect cesspit I tend to remember theres always madness at the emergency exit I gotta keep my shit in line the OCD is pressuring me Everything im writing down aint staying the same lettering Im tryin not to question that maybe i have a better me Weather i do or i dont i think that me some needs censoring I need your time maybe a little bit of notice Addicted to pain thats why i have chose this Route... im about to lose to all my focus I may spit fire but i still feel frozen Not long ago I let it all go How the fuck would i know It would all explode In my face now im runnin the therapy race So lets talk about why i lead first place Why tho?!? You dont even notice that when im alone i cant seem to control it like a beast in hole no keys for control cruise beats i compose L.V. beethoven Raps so potent they feel like they stolen I killed your game so heres my condolence Rip right by you leave a path like moses And all i ever hear is bullshit like.... VERSE 3 Im in this rap game and there is something that i wonder about I noticed that theres a surprising thinness of the competitive crowd How come i only hear these rappers when theyre being loud And why the fuck do i see light flash before my eyes with no thunder cloud My mind is circling around observing all these picture perfects The room is noisy from all the people like im in fuckin circus Im center stage with my heart out getting punctured by these nurses I need to write that down, does anyone know where the fuck my journal is? Sanitys gone! Tragedy song! I aint on the same shit that im normally on Certainly hoping for my own little quoting Ill soak in the moment the cadence ive drawn Need to find a better version of myself Searching and hoping i can cut these urges Biting my nails and chasing the tail This couldnt possibly be what my purpose is Nobody knows im a little psychotic middle age prophet locked in a tomb Step in my office Fork in the socket Why does it feel like im in a cartoon My shrink claims happiness is stuck on demand Hes glad to put a lot of pills in my hand I get lost in my thoughts theres a map on my hand Wait, where am i again?