how so you heal a broken soul thats been battered so much by life that its starting to take its tole been used and abused so many times that they scared to trust and the person they thought they love the most...got them scared to death stare in the mirrow and feel like they not beautiful..but only if they knew...they beauty was indisputable....searching for love in all the wrong places...obvious of the outcome...so much love in they heart that they shouls try to give they self some..tears dreach they pillow as they cry they self...soo.many bad decisons they despise they self...wish they could trust anyone..but then they hide they self........behide walls of emotion....so diastrught that ita hard to stay focused...how could they be sooo dumb.....how could they feel soo numb...to give a person so much of they life and dedication.....only to end up lost in the middle of translation....feels like they been stabbed in the gut with a knife.....but they understand what they signed up for..cause love is a price...yes...a four letter word...with two definitions....pain and love go hand and hand..so what am i missing.........should have saw all the signs....but i didnt pay attention........wanted to believe...that you was diffrent......so wrong was i....was i wrong to try.....now all i want to do is curl up and die...took so much stregth from me that i cant even cry.....never the one to pretend.......if this is what love feels like....then i never ever want it again(2x) i never want it again......