fuck a god

i felt that cold steel as i put that gun to my head god this pain, it feels like im already dead i shed no tear, shed no blood, god i forget that im only human, not important just contempt i dont want attention, don't wanna be a bitch on the internet but i believe that my mind is a threat i won't harm myself, i think one pull will just do the bullet latches the pain and together they go right threw i want a better life but how the Fuck do i improve all this fucking bullshit isn't my fault, God it's Fucking you i feel like im your little project you love to see me fail Go Fuck Yourself i mean it this time, im fucking through God i believe everything that happened to me is because of you You took My Uncle, Took My friends, Took my distractions Took Me, Took My Will, Bitch you made it happened I dont care if speaking my mind makes me go to hell i'm living it on earth so i might as well, Fuck It   I felt that rush as i put that gun to my head Fuck This pain, I want to be dead I shed these tears, Shed This blood, i wont forget Im only human, i'm important your content i don't care for attention or the people on the internet i believe that my mind is powerful and dangerous i will harm nothing, when i pull the trigger and attack the surface of my chin to my brain, i feel nothing im not nervous I want a better life but how do i improve whoever put me here just give me a noose i don't know what you are but your not a god God's wouldn't rip my heart and hide like a coward leave there people in pain, Fuck you coward big and mighty stand over us like a tower take every thing we have to remind us your in power Im only human i have no power but i will bring this to the grave, fuck you im no coward I dont care if speaking my mind makes me go to hell i'm living it on earth so i Might as well, Fuck It   "God, Please forgive for i have sinned, I spoke my mind my truth and for that please forgive"