addict

ahhh what is this feeling? why do I feel cold? why do I feel like someone sold my soul? but at the end of the day i don't know. I don't know. ehhh shit wake up feeling hollow another empty pill bottle another hard pill to swallow getting hard to breathe, neck within a gallow you can never go free from that you keep within, shit looking in the mirror with dead eyes see where the problem lies it's I guess I've never tried going cold turkey even when I'm going cold earthly and it erks me that I had to die before rollin the die of life but I guess I paid my price to the pills and the thrills that I felt and how I chose to fold every card I was dealt welp ... take a pill, you know you will, you know your willing to kill yourself for the thrill, but how does it feel spasmin an gaspin for air, just keep sayin no-one will care, shit maybe you will maybe that's how you feel maybe you wanna lie still but still try to feel how I feel how it kills me how it fills me with anger that never stills even more when ya laying still in your coffin now I'm lost in the rabbit hole even knowin what it cost him but I need a relief I need a new release maybe now i know what made him bot wanna breathe