To Terry

THIS IS FOR MY LATE BOYFRIEND TERRY EVER IN MY HEART AND NEVER FORGOTTEN 💋 Missing you my homie my angel standing by Your life was lost too soon wish we never said goodbye Think of you so often with my tears I pay the cost As time goes on without you swear not a single memory is lost Thoughts of how you’d paint on tv screens How I’d cry with my head held in your lap Talking deeply for hours you where always down for that Love was never far from us our friendship bound to change to more Thought we had time left then you were gone I was shaken to the core Now you were ever patient while I discovered who I was and what was right But when I heard you went to heaven the pain cut my heart up like a knife Wish to God I had been there because maybe then I coulda saved your life Every time I think about your face when I saw you smile takes away my breath have to sit for a while always there when things overwhelmed my fragile heart You where the only one that would wait for love until my heart was primed to start Your door was always open to me you never could stay mad Even when I’d fuck shit up and sometimes my words would make you sad You knew me on a deeper level that I found hard to understand As I tried to learn who I was and how to love never saw the timer lose its sand I was off and searching and right beside me was my man I will forever tell the living not to wait on shit chose to love the moment that you can Don’t wait till your a few years older for the perfect time don’t make a plan choose love in the moment it hits you never leave its side as a Shepard to its lamb What I’d give to feel you hold me close and tell me truths I needed to hear to curl up safe and full of tears in silence as you saw me through when I was paralyzed with fear Through you I learned my worth that I am strong and smart and kind I learned that I can be loved a gentle touch and the power of my mind More than two years your not here I am not the woman I was once forever changed by life’s battles yet standing tall and strong because I can your strength beside me hear your deep calm words telling me I have what it takes to make my fate and create my dreams in this world I miss you with all I am wish I woulda shoulda coulda didn’t running a banner in my head You my immortal in my heart with you A string tied soul to soul hope someday we meet again have a drink and toke a bowl The world changed without you my heart broke in two a piece it went with you I want to tell you Terry I was in love with you what I couldn’t say in life I’m sad to say it when your gone I did love you Terry so I wrote it in this song