idk just off the top / treat the beat like a diary

we're toxic and I'm selfish You were an option but I fell quick I got you and I'm selfish And you got me on some spell shit To be honest you can't help me I hate life I feel empty And I'm gonna get high if I get it That's the way I am I can't fix this But deep down hope you forgive me But this is my life and ima live it All this jealously and agony that I sit in I'm a jealous boy really feel like John Lennon I just want real love guess it's been a minute r I p to juice hope I he's at peace within. that line I really feel it really feel it Why am i still awake at 3 am I wipe my tears away and keep praying Am I troubled kid that never grew up Or just a lost soul that needs someone Yeah I live in empty bottles Tired of drinking drowning sorrows I hate the ground I walk on Tired of wishing I won't be around tomorrow like my big dick is addiction is in my genes bitch