true life

If I get too close to anyone, then I'ma end up messing up Stressing sucks. I'm sorry that I'm always so depressing. Fuck I can't be happy Because happiness is sappy I'm not good with my emotions And I don't know how to show 'em At least, not the way you want me to I'm not the girl you want me to Be. I'm me, and I'm not perfect; ain't that fucking true? I've turned myself inside Turned my eyes to the internal, so I had somewhere to hide In the crowded world. My only friend is sophia And she cares about me That's the part that really gets to me when I'm lost in thought, I'm stuck just she and me And she tells me all my flaws: Every single sin. It seems We will never get along See, I don't hate myself; I hate the part of me that hates myself: The heart of me that breaks itself Or others break Fuck it; I'm stuck inside my head And I'm not sure whether the people there want me alive or dead