I’m feeling depressed when my friends are not around I can’t really smoke cause I’m scared I’ll be too loud. Just me and my dad we live in this big house. Im way too young to settle at the bar. I stay in my room and you know I play guitar. My papaw died when he was 57 I really feel his precents I hope he goes to heaven. The one thing that helps me with anxiety. Is when I’m with my friends the ones beside me. I lost my fuckin job cause my drawer was short. My mom left me when I was 2 my dad took it to quart. 2 I don’t know how long this is gonna last. You know I’m lil rohr and I just say fuck the past. Cause nothings gonna change in till you make it. And I know life is a risk but I’ll take it. I only choke sometimes cause I get kinda scared. But when I’m with the boys it’s nothing to compare. It changes my emotions and makes me feel great. I remember those days we were swimming in the lake. Dawson saw a snake and he freak out. Aye ya we live in Germantown every body around you like never se a frown I’m the only one that drowns.