i sit here dyin so many years wasted away now i feel like even though your so close you feel a million miles away one mistake i hate fucking day i walked out that door and never looked back me without you' is like a permanet heart attack so many regrets along the way and this life yeah i even tried to take my life not just once but twice picked up the knife slit my wrist to no relief i couldn't even get that right white padded rooms isolation an so manyt pills i just wanted to heal but you can't heal your heart once it's broke i fucked up thats no joke all this pain ive caused wish theyd hang me from a rope and challenge me not to choke a fools way is a full day of lonelyness and pain no plans for a new day just another day so far away i wish i would of just stayed deep inside my brain its like me without you drives me insane i'm sorry for the things that i did to you and how i made you feel and look like a fool but in my fucked up mind there was no other but to stay away and pray one day that time would take away your pain but i see now that i was wrong and you hurt everyday and that you cried over and over till your makup washed away prayin that one day i would be back in you life and you could be the same and be my wife and instead of misery that everything would be alright instead all we did was just call each other just to fight and if i could make one wish it would be that inside of you youd be alright cause i know your strong you put up a good fight and one day youll have a great life i have to tell you babe i miss you tonight