#IDKhowtosaygoodbye #realtalk #deepbarz #painsandstruggles #nocomparsionkillerbarz #killerHaNdLeZ #barzonbarz #kingbarzonbarz #MaDdHaNdLeZ #LJN #LyrikalJuggernauntz @bmvideo @rapfamebest @rapfameofficial @admin @rapfamefeature #BMfeature #BMvideo #BMbest #BMvideo #BMbattleme #Rap #Hiphop #2020fire #2020heat #2020feature (hook) (verse1) When does the pain stop, why doesn't anyone want to accept me, feel like my heart about to pop, heart feeling extremely heavy, overloaded ready to burst, I feel cursed, happiness just doesn't apply to me, who am I? Who is me? Why was i choosen to be born after my mom's lost a baby before me, some how I guess you can call me lucky til you look at my life and what became of me, life insurance looks really good right about now, fuck a crown, thinking I can make it in this rap shit is pretty foolish, pretty stupid, funny as hell and delirious, idk anymore, losing faith and not keeping up with the score, feel like I'm too far behind so chalk it up a lost, giving up seems like the purpose, cuz it doesn't seem like anything I bring to the table is worth it, always ask myself, why am I here, it's clear, my kids, but everyday a struggle, especially how it ended with they moms, so only reason why I tick, it's simple, my life is my kids, thats all thats it (Hook) (versetwo) You can say I'm a sucka for pain, you can say I'm addicted pain, my pain is underneath, hiding it is getting harder today, if it doesn't kill you it will only make you stronger, unless I beat myself to it, that's when the pain got stronger, Cuz you wonder, how much longer, sit there and ponder, til you fix it or the pain fix you, My kids is what keeps me true but there's still days where i dont know if thats enough, dodging so many obstacles thru out life, addicted to pain, maybe so much it turnt to real like its normal day, my reality blinded, not noticing how broken the road is, so use to the cracks, just seems like going ghost, literally is the right choice, so much hate, lies, why not make them true, better yet, why dont i make dreams come true, happy death day to myself, blow out the candles, yall wish comes true, not like anyone gonna cry over my casket, the only thing hardest to take in besides leaving my kids if thats the road i choose is admitting the devil won, my faith strong, doesn't mean i dont have questions, pain