Mental Health Scare

#rap #hiphop #rapfame #like #bars #real #realism #bars #flow #follow #feedback #collab #storytelling #fire #banger #playthis Dont tell me how I'm suppose to feel Who you fooling are you even real Battle with my own emotions yeah i am still People ask me Monty yo what's your deal? Novacane it doesnt go away I feel numb as hell everyday Smoke some good weed just to feel something aye Whispering to myself uh big homie its gonna be okay Keep your head up you can pull more than your own weight Time to take everyone's doubts an shove em in their face You never knew the true me in the first place Well hello I'm back my soul will no longer be away See the reality in my life blossomed into a beautiful rose bouque Each flower in it resembles my hate misery agony n pain Feel it for real coursing threads your veins What's it like when your mindstate wont stop switching lanes Swear to christ my mental health getting to be borderline insane True shit got me an appointment to go to in like 2 days I'm tired of this rollercoaster I wanna remain awake Fuck this purgatory isnt for me present day is my proper place Bye bye vibing getting lost I  that dragons smoke haze Turned in my running shoes no longer do I chase Cuz never again will that be a lifestyle I tolerate Breath in real deep talking to myself like monty do it with me I'm guilty for hyperventilating whenever I start to overthink If you know me well I'm an open book guess makes me easy to read I wish my peers could feels these emotions an tears an pain that I bleed Is it all for nothing or could be a reason were does it lead?