Feelings

Look life is hard Hope I make it It's a risk But I'll take it Feeling like I'm living, stuck in the basement I'm just trying to get a higher placement Life is hard But I'll make it I can't wait a long time I'm anxious I've just gotta get off The pavement So they hear me across The nation Life is hard Remember when we’re young and  innocent  Till we got corrupted by the government  Parents yelling at us because we get in trouble  We’re just teens why can’t they just let us be Life is short sometime sweet  Hey this is a smooth beat we can’t do what they could back then stayin out till 10 Everything illegal now Now a days I’m in my room listening to beats  I honestly want to fit in  its sad like berlin Play every sport just to make friends  But In the end I’m left alone again Boutta 2 years ago my dad had enough  Opened his pill bottle took them all  Called me sayin goodbye  That morning all I did was cry What you just gonna forget about us It was 6:47 he only lasted till 6:53  Oh man how could this be My dads my hero and now he gonna be gone This is a sad song I know lifes rough but dad why you trying to leave I need you please  I sat in that hospital by your side for 4 days straight While you were in a coma  I remember you squeezing my hand 3 times  Next thing Ik your comin out of the state  Dad I hope you enjoyed your break  Now your coming back to stay  Spin around year later now Your going around  Spending your money on things you dont need stop dad please Still have nightmares from the night you almost died makes me sad inside Why you trying to put me through it again He went to rehab for a week  I was excited for him to be clean Then Turn around the next week  Sniffing the table again Man your my best friend  Over in Iraq it  must’ve messed with you Doing a thing not alot of parents do You lay on the couch sleeping  I hear you screamin  Don’t go in there Bang you awaken shaken  Now mom won’t let us see you because of the drugs  I miss you I want to give you a hug I don’t want my best friend leaving me to go up above I love you Ive cried so much I thought it was pouring I’ve been depressed no one sees it I try taking away the pain from people  It works I’ve helped a lot  But In the end it all catches up to me  Who’s there for me  Man I just want to scream  I wish this was all a dream I’ve helped so many  prevented the unspeakable  I told them it’s ok and it’s  treatable I try  you don’t understand how hard  This is my life  I’ll be called pussy for explaining my feelings  Ready to say bye  But I’m not a coward Ill regenerate  In the end I’m just the kid you saw walk-in by smiley face productions