Release (Freestyle)

What’s wrong with you I don’t know but I know the truth I'm apparently part of the untrue youth But I ain't as dirty as the rest of the crew I ain't like anyone else and you don't like that I'm sorry I wasn't part of the wealthy process The only processes I'm on are welfare and conscience  But you don't like it when I talk poor so let's just drop that I'm sorry I'm not perfect I'm sorry I'm not the definition of worth it I'm sorry the way I think is kind of reversing The way that you believe everything is worthless I'm not stupid, you must believe me I do try And for some reason, I bottle it all up inside I lie just to get away from the shots fired I'm so internal that I can't even cry It takes something special for me break And if I do break then, I start to shake It's just all my emotions coming out in a rampage  The vibrations strong enough to shake this place I hate the fact that even my friends don't understand me And I don't like the thought just them thinking that I can't be Anything, Relevant and important in history Will he make don't care, it ain't mystery Why do yall always look at me like I am stupid Honestly I feel like yall are just trying to use me And in every scenario, I feel like I'm always losing And I'm always behind being elusive And if you start the judging, it's always conclusive You always come to a verdict based off of allusions Based off your inferences of me bringing illusions You even think I'm wrong in asking what are you doing And it's kind of abusive It's just the way that you see me And if I told you the truth, there is no way that you'd believe me Cause the truth can't be relevant to what I am seeing But what do you see, what are you perceiving But if Im on my way to go, yall dont want me leaving And if I don't pay attention to you, the purpose is defeating The definition of friends, but what is that meaning Everything that I lose it is a verbal beating And you don't like everytime I get quiet But when I do, inside I'm having a riot You keep selling me love and I don't wanna buy it I just wanna see you in heaven the day we are dying Your lying when you say I am not trying how do you know my limits when you dont know who I am My plans are about as far as the sky is But I cant seem to see the limits my lies set Setting and background of the place we are It's a war zone full of past hurt and scars That ain't it, Bill Skarsgard But in a few weeks I'll be driving a car And the road I'm on seems to never end Just like the friends I have, have never been Open to each other, we can do better then Just carrying messages like we are Lettermen To you, yes you, No one else I'm so tired of the closest person being myself I'm glad you have a lot including wealth But millionaires are still dying due to their health You may have a lot of things but so what  I'm willing to lay my life down and give it all up For the one who saved me, the one who is just Are you also afraid to even say the name Jesus We both know who he is like we both know pain Maybe that's the reason why God gave me my name Can when my signs build up and I feel ashamed He takes the pain and washes it all away But when I bring up God, you seem afraid Like you've done so much wrong, you can't be saved And to cover your wrong doings, you push me away Cause he can see how hurt you are and all of your stains But just know where you go, only one thing remains And that one thing, is helping me to change But I want it so bad that I force my own ways And I'm so unstable, I derail my own train The clouds of my mind darken and it starts to rain I tend to give it my all and step on the stage and when I start talking is when I get erased Cause I'm a memory that once in awhile you'll chase It's embarrassing, how we always play this game The way I think is something that I can't explain I was never taught my thoughts, I was never trained But there's something I must learn, something for me to gain God help me to be humble so I can release these chains