I'm sittin all alone

I'm sittin all alone and everytime I try to reach out no one hears me I feel like I'm fallin off the map my family dosen't understand and lately I been acting like a tuff guy but the truth is that I'm plotting on myself like yeah I should pop a bottle xanax but I remember these drugs leading me further down this path I just want someone to love im just tryin to be a bigger guy but I got so much weighing down on my shoulders it makes me wanna cry and there so much more in my head and it's like I'm thinking about just ending and everytime I get a lil happy someone or something happens ig I was meant to be alone I miss the old me I figure I got sum demons in my mind and the truth is that I just tried of waking up alone but I can't let these voices get control but I wish there was something I could do but I'm not tryin not to hurt myself I keep to myself instead of tellin anyone else what the fuck I'm feelin I'm just smoking sum dope but I got hunger in the pit of my stomach so I try to avoid the rest of feelin but oh great here it comes my anxiety and I hear them voices tellin me I'm useless and I'm panicking so someone plz help me before I can't stop listening and fall deeper in to depression #hiphop #rap #