D3M0" What Is Left"

I'm watching as the fire burns every picture we ever took the wind is blowing the ashes of those memories away I wanna erase without leaving anything that will trace or put anything we ever had together I'm laying here I'm lost inside the pain I feel is there anyway for me to numb it all the way down into the core of my ever broken heart Tormented nothing is ever going to change the outcome of what is to become of me I think I'm going to head back to who and what I used to be what I'm completely known for the one thats always getting high seems its my only way that I'll get through So many doubt's with the way you left me no remorse of what it has done to me tearing me apart there's no one that will ever pick up all the pieces of my shattered heart I'm having trouble with the air I'm breathing hyperventilating losing my conscious I'm close to losing my mind all I wanna do is leave everything behind without ever taking any steps back I'm shutting every door as I numb all the pain with the drug that your always gonna hate me for there just isn't any other way for me to go it's the only way I can cope through all the pain that you left me with All the pain I can't really deal with keeping me down there's nothing more to all of this without fear what do I gain I'm out of control I don't care anymore I wanna end this all even if it ends with me putting my life on the line from the high I'm now on without any type of limit from every second minute the way my heart is beating