Tick Tock,Time marches on, it doesn't stop Trying to fix every mistake I've made before I drop I wanna clean slate, Before I leave all this behind I want to be remembered for the dude I used to be, My life I wanna redefine I can't go out without clearing my conscience, Go Out With A Free Mind I wanna be able to look the Man Upstairs in the eye, And ask for his forgiveness, apologize for all the lies and every tear that fell outta my mom and dad's eyes And thank him from the bottom of my heart for his sacrifice Believe it or not, I once had a dream I had a bright future, MF High Beams My baby mama, had something different in store When it rains it fucking pours And it's been raining ever since she took my son and walked out the door She took my 15 month old baby Boy, but believe me, she took so much more That was over 20 years ago, and to this day my tears still hit the floor You don't have a clue about what pain is ,Be My Guest, Slip On My Shoes, and Take A Tour Man, I swear to God, Idk how I survived... For some odd reason, The Man Upstairs kept me alive Well I'm here but mentally I got left behind Memory LANE, December of 98, 20 year anniversary You should of put a Pistol to my head, And murdered me WTF did I do for you to do what you did? I was 19, you were 18 , Damn we were only kids I only was a daddy for 15 months, He just turned 22, That makes 20years and 9 months that I have missed I look at the Man in the mirror but I don't know who this is It's almost Christmas once again, 20 year anniversary of where it all began Would of, could of, should of, I'm just sitting here day dreaming I gave up 20 years ago, became an addict, MF Pipe Dreams I was only 19, I'm 40 today My life passed me by, everything in my life flew away Mom, Dad, 3 chances at becoming a daddy Guess I just wasn't meant to be I'm sitting here reminiscing, about everything that I am missing Damn, it sure is quiet these days ,Im losing control doing 90 on the Free way On a booze cruise,,and I can't see straight On the Highway to Hell, Give me my wings, time to fly away, ti.e to ring the Bell Ring The Bell You should of been listening to my cries for help, Now it's too late,Tick Tock,See you in Hell