Am I okay!?

Yeah...Am I okay? I really can't say but people keep asking me so maybe that's how I'm supposed to be so maybe I should show em all what they wanna see even if I can't believe even if I can't conceive even "I" just can't breathe das how it's gotta be yuh people keep asking me... People keep asking me... Yeah people keep asking me but I don't think I'm supposed to be no I don't that I can be *pause* okay heart feels like it's beating's on delay feels like these demons just won't go away no! Why do I hide it? Why do I deny it? Why can't I seem to fly when everybody says the sky's the limit? Feels like I'm stuck on the ground trapped in a prison and there's no escaping it I'm looking around me seein the aftermath it's gotta be true so I must admit to it I gotta live with it I gotta bear with it. At least that's what everybody tells me but lately I just can't cope with it show up with it no. True I got the dou but I just don't feel anything anymore can't seem to find any of the greater thrills doesn't even matter if I fuck a thousand hoes Doesn't even matter if I buy the goldest chainz or the biggest grills homez hell it don't even matter how much I get stoned. Look around you. Country's corrupted people getting abducted the wrong people getting cuffed in. stuffed in cells. ironic how the people who's supposed to protect us are the ones killing us so I guess we gotta look out for ourselves. Easier said than done whoever said life would be easy would be wrong. Trust me I'm here driving through it breathing in the air choking on the smoke till it touch mah lungs been so paranoid can't even sleep at night without sleeping with a gun. World is so cold I can barely find warmth in the sun das why I wanna move on to the next one if I ever have kids cuz I don't want this for my daughter or my son. I don't want them to go through the same pain I did I don't want heartbreak or regret for them. Yeah whoever said we needed to go through the pain to learn a few things along the way I don't agree can't agree with them. I'm sorry... Am I okay? I can't really say but people keep asking me so maybe that's how I'm supposed to be so maybe I should show em all what they wanna see even if I can't believe even if I can't conceive even if "I" just can't breathe. Maybe that's how it's supposed to be...