What do you see in me? I wonder. I often catch my self day dreaming about the meaning and what we could be. Then my mind wanders. Cant ever rest I need some clarity I guess ill find it somewhere. Is this a test to see if I'm the best that you never had just leave me to ponder am I really that bad? All these situations I put myself through for you now I'm insinuating that I'm about be through with you How can I get through to you? You haven't been active in over 7 hours Won't ring. Got me thinking who Got you thinking bout other things. Like why do you act like you don't know when the phone rings Playing with my heart strings. It's quite pathetic that I'm going along with it Misery is all it brings Now I'm at the point to where I'm fucking apathetic That heartfelt message you just sent me I just read it And left it on read. Maybe then you'll get it Something's are better left unsaid I'll admit it Maybe I'm not better off dead this situation I'll just forget it. Just friends I know Then why the fuck do you say you want more and get jealous when I'm with another hoe. Everytime I try to go you beg me to stay and act like you never wanna let me go Yet I don't mean shit to you when you're with your friends you know Everything is just a hit to you. Your morals will diminish slow. Just know That I love you. And id put nothing up above you if you weren't an actress Here you won a Grammy can we get past this A whole lot of acting and no action All for the aesthetic no fucking passion For the viewers satisfactions you turned me into a feeling assassin.