G_Nate - problems

people keep telling me to happy instead im angry and i get snappy why yall clapping? im not tryna put on a show these feelings are for real if you think its a joke then go home im not about the jokes the devil in my head is getting to me telling me things i shouldnt believe its so easy to see that this person in the mirror isnt me its so hard to be me and believe that everything will be ok especially when your suicidal please check on my vitals i guess i am dead inside i got nothing to hide sit alone in a dark room and cry wishin that id die so much shit just piled up in one life is no fun just a game of survival can you make it to the end? well depends if you want to see the end spending countless hours trying to figure out my powers i wish that i can inpire and devour every hater a second later debating with my mind aching taking every bit of energy left in me why i cant i just get relief be normal for a week just stand in disbelief put me on a leash im about to unleash my power of speech make everyone freeze in disbelief i deal with a lot of shit everytime i talk about it people just say to do something about it its not as easy as you think where everything is beautiful and pink colorful and bright more like dark and weak always in this slumber everyone is a number soon were gonna outnumber areselves be more problems than ever before that one struggling human wont matter as much were just an illusion bunch of people fused together to create a monstrosity so much curiousity that kills, the blood spills, from waterfalls once someone disappeares now everyone cares while no one cared when that person was here now eyes filled with tears ignored the human for years now saying we should of done something you should of stopped runnin stopped slumming stopped shunning open your ears and stop humming look what you're becoming got no future dont know what to do just feel like a fool feel so miniscule i don't feel cool pool of regret wish i can take back what i said but thats not how it works just immerse yourself to this universe see what you'll become or wont become thats up to you you saw what i been through now its your turn where will you go?