it's Cmk look I took that mirror & shattered it now I have nothing to be afraid of is it weird to say I hate love couldn't find it so I gave up cause all I ever found was fake love & can't sleep so I stay up & smoke weed until 3 am & then I take 3 Tylenol pms & check dms still no messages look at my life the mess it is in I try to stay optimistic but I am a pessimist about to count my blessings one ok I'm done now i havent seen the sun in months like a dead beat dad & that's the one thing I never had the thing I said I was blessed with but I feel like ive let him down like NF did all I ever wanted to do was make him proud but I get nervous on a stage picturing the crowd naked doesn't work for me so now i got to work this fucking dead end job that feels like I'm working for free which has me feeling like jumping from a building but you don't have to worry cause there's only 1 story that I tell now so if I ever fell down the fall to the ground only hurts me & what doesn't kill you only makes ya strong call me fucking Hercules yeah I got a fear of mirrors & this is my therapy if you could hear all the thoughts in my head you would be scared of me my parents where the only ones ever there for me I could never repay the way they took care of me but I still have nightmares & scary dreams all I do is fight fears constantly it's like we are married some days I do wish that I would die then I visualize all the tears in moms eyes as they bury me Cmk