Live to die!

Im in the city Varna No one give a fuck cuz i smoke a marijuana. I wanna say to my mamma in my family is fucking drama. I want to kill myself in lava. When no one is in home i drink a vodka and smoke. This is not a joke. I want to choke myself. My best friend died and my family dont love me. I want to solve the problem. But im like a fucking ant. Im outsider, but good writer. I should have good life. I dont want to make a fight. I might me right for one thing... Im white and im going to bite. I dont want to be boring. I want to sing. They say when i rap they want to sink. I dont give a fuck, about the fame i want to be the same. My life is like a game. But im not in this world to be shame. Im here to claim rewards and aim in every dick head. Maybe im lame, maybe my name is not cool. Maybe my grates are not good in school. Im underground, but in the world im buried in the ground. I found my tallent. My brain is unlimited to make rhymes. Cuz im insane, but i dont fake my story and i dont make shitty vines. My uncle was having kid. His kid kill himself in two hundred and ten, amen. When i grow like a man i want to have fans. I want to have the chance to be good in rap. I dont want to have gucci flip flops. I dont want to have problem with cops. I want to know everything. The problem is... i smoke cuz my heart is broke. But its hard to stop. I want hope. I dunno how im alive. Maybe before 3 months i was going to kill myself on rope. I sound little bit monotone. The fun is gone. Everytime i am in the friend zone. When my friends call me i dont pick the phone and when i pick it they are like " WOAH, man my mind is blown i dunno why you are alone, but you sound like a clown" and i say to him " Oh, hi now you are unknown for me and dont say that cuz i will break your bone with stone" Is it good to be on that world or bad My dad dont work.I'm mad. My life is sad, but im glad to have fans like you.