Im not entirely sure what my mood is these days. Im apathetic its pathetic but it hurts so i dont get it. Im wondering whats wrong with me I know but wont admit it. I try not to let it....let the feelings infect me Numb as fuck cause i let these drugs protect me. Im the one out of every three that got selected the only reason i aint dead yet is cause I haven't injected. I wish all my friends that the needles took could be resurrected cause i cant stop thinking i could write a book bout those i neglected. But im not perfect Sometimes i wonder if the work is even worth it. Pretty sure i slept through last summer I was a hermit. I cant go outside because im not on terms with the fact i let these streets take over me when will i learn this Ive lost myself. There are only a few people who knew me when i was someone else...put them through hell because I couldnt stop what i was doing and they could really tell hated when they dwell it makes me compelled to scream and yell so i fell out not leaving them with any worths to spell out Now im here with no conception of time. Thats went by.... The only thing bringing me back to reality is when i rhyme or do a line To get some clarity but these days it's not easy to find. All i find Is my self staring in the mirror for hours wondering when is the last time i even took a shower Got lost again. It sucked me in. Ive lost all the power. To stop what im doing even though its ruining what was sweet cause now im sour. Im that bitter taste on the tip of your tongue Im that scary face in the shadows you run from I'm a disgrace but i cant help it thats my idea of fun. Such devilish ways to make you numb. How dumb. Can't feel my fingertips No feeling My emotions left me No use in trying to discect me Cause i was never healing. Stay away you might infect me Cause u look appealing But i cant no i won't let you affect me .dont try stealing My heart You cant find it Its too dark Never mind even trying to bind all of the parts Its an art I was broken from the very start. My jugment is impaired because I dared I wasnt scared I didnt care Nor was I aware I cant compare The amount 9f