Be honest (snippet with lyrics)

I just want you to be honest x2 yeahx4 I just want honesty when u awknowledge me thats not too much to ask but you know sometimes the rain comes past and washes away our ash from the past I didnt expect any hurt but I was wrong yes I failed didn't know that it would decline in the matter of time yeah uh I tried to persuade you like no other i tried to love you but ya slut up done fucked other people I don't think we should be and..... im stuck here debating rather if I feel incomplete or not slit my wrist to this shit its tuff cheated on me with another person........ im giving another chance and my anxiety hitting the ceiling im feeling so worthless what I do to deserve this? I just want you to be honest x2 yeahx4 you know the times that I've left? made you feel heartbroken adding devastated you were never irritated just so sick and over it getting drunk just to cool off I've made a mistake.... something that can't be replaced but refixed