ESTRANGED

JADE Strawberries and champagne. The seeds of change , our love and devotion no longer , old and familiar, we are estranged . no longer cuddling, snuggling, or playing Sex games , valentine's cards no longer exchanged. we no longer share my last name . no spark or flames remains. I don't feel the same . and your to blame . right now I'm numb so I don't feel your pain. I take no pleasure in bringing us to an abrupt end. but us staying together is insane in my hearts membrane. I was really in love , within the city of sin . we drove here listening to all eyes on me and r u still down . we cried a tupacs , vigil, when he got gunned down . now its check out time . no more , I'm hard as check out mines . no more boring punch lines .we got married at the little white chapel , honeymoon at excalibur. every body was talkin bout nninas and nines room 1119 . now its 40 calibers, from 40 glocks , 21 gun salute , dressed in fatigues and black Jean's and boots . disappeared into the crowd .like poof .I guess we all gone now , ny feelings , those are just memories , like the corners ,of mind, misty colored and memories of the way we were. that's the truth . now I'm alone in this booth .all alone with the truth . to tell you the truth , this hurts less than being with you. I guess I never really knew you . if I only knew, how much I would hate you . I wouldve one night stand you. and paid no mind to you . your last view of me , the back my head and my behind to you . you gotta buch of issues, I take the blame for a few . I never put paws on you or disrespected you . I loved and supported you. can't say I wasn't a good husband to you . that catch twenty two , numbers never lie , I told you . last private joke with you . remember how we used to do. ,oh yeah that's right it wasn't you . it was your alias dejavu. deja who ? just that person you pretended to be .. that wasn't really you. but I still gave my heart to you , what was husband to do . not give good love to you . first two letters of our first names (TA) wanna (BY) ron , together we formed TABY . like , (to always be yours ) (to always be you) it's funny now when I think about you. like dejavu. I'm not a player I just crush a lot like you . I wonder how different my life, would be if I never met you. would I have a son or daughter. and grand kids , that call me papa .na naw , you saw to that , wish I could take my time back . I could've pursued my writings and my raps . I gave away all that .just to help you get back , cancer back to back guess who I gotcha back .your physical therapist. your chef ,consultant and your confidant. now I'm still confident that we were never meant. you were never heaven sent . never very innocent. when I needed you ,you became absent and unreliable. that was undeniable. I didn't really forgive you. I just felt I owed at least, another try to you. all I got was more lies from you .I hope really find you and be the best you. I plan to. I don't plan b , I master plan the rap community, diplomatically, no immunity just allergies. Its spring ,new flowers and new love can bloom in . when one season ends a new one rolls right in . like I'm a rolling stone , I got to roll along. and live my songs . me hear with you ,you'll see , I no longer belong .If I stayed another minute I would have stayed a minute too long. right now , I'm so gone , I should've been gone .I should've been stopped holding on . we been over for too long . we been wobbling .I guess love falls again . until it falls down and just out, like when I gave you my ring . I take another knee ,I bow and un vow my love to you my old friend. I have no doubts, we been on the outs .I forgive you , you know what I'm talking about. those boots I bought you with the diamonds on the bottom. (GUCCI LISA GG's ) please be Gucci without me. They where made for walking. so please walk on out of my life .you no longer have a husband and I no longer have a wife. Good day , good nights and have a GUCCI life . I plan to live mines righteously, I won't let you or anybody get the best of me. remember I'm mysterious elements. you are now replaceable and irrelevant. no kiss good bye ,no wiping tears from your lying eyes , no more fake alibis. no more crocodile tears , no more just these sad 22two years . just be glad we had some cheers we can watch how time flies when we are not in each other's lives like two ships in the night just passing by . that's you and I .no babies just byes no one mo try again . no more lies no weapon formed against me . shall prosper , and every tongue that shall rise against thee. in judgment, thou shalt not condemn . this is the heritage of the servants of the lord . and their righteousness is ME.SAITH the LORD. lord byron be thy name . I spit this with all my shame. and give you all the blame.