im over looking all the facts, all the fam thats got my back every night I make it past everybody trying to take a chance hopefully this doesn't last I got a past I can't go back I lost my kid I lost my girl I lost my world. What have I done can barely cope without my son, what's going on, I'm a boy the mans my son, I gotta stay on the grind n keep on coming up I owe that 2 em I gotta make it up, they tryin to take my life, I'm still here, you see I'm tryin right, everyday dodging the reapers Saif, surviving life, it ain't right, bout a year nows past every day they trying to kill n end it, day to day turning fam against me, ling on the facts, I don't betray I got there backs you wanna chill bet they blame my messed up life for they relapse, I'm in Texas now but best be leave Colorado I'm comin back. I cant relax I'm feeling trapt.So weres my Fam, dont understand. Wish i would of stuck to the plan. i would of been in a better position then the position I'm in. like dam cant comprehend this situation im in. Got these creatures crawling in and out of my skin. Don't feel that I'll ever be able to be preseved a normal human ever again. I'm changing for the better n finally like the person that i am. Back on my feet then back off again, they knock me down, I keep on coming back, over n over again. Somehow this stress has got to end. Im tired of being secret. If I'm a voice in your head then speak it, don't keep it. They still tappin on my window, i ges tonight I get no sleep. Anouther late night thankfull I'm not getting caught up on some realness, Keep to myself stay on point until morning when i go 2 group n see my therapist, I got this spooky situation I'm trying to get threw it. I got some dues n respect plus a thank you, I dont know how to give. How can i thank you for something like saving my ass n my life. i owe you more then i know. You have helped me more then it shows. its been a honor having yall in my life the way you have been. My life is different now n it's never changing back. know the only one i can truly trust is myself crazy eyez my eyez all oscilate, not alone i chill all by myself and alone im my own best friend, learned that from my mentors, I'm not the best, and your opinion of me is none of my business. I care less what people think n more of what my inner beings wish. I'm learning from my misstakes n ill never make the same misstakes again. On a mission to be not a normal impenetrable man. Survive grow n evolve the best way i think i can.living with some rectitude for me n my little man.