SORRY

My emotions are running hard Realizing I'm not the only one with scars Realizing I'm not the only one with bars Understanding I'm not the only one who's life goes by slower than tar Then the good moments come And the speed picks up And our lives seem done And we run out of luck Feels like we got hit by a truck Driven by our fears This is something few people will hear This is something that the past draws near It seems like everyday we fight battles And even if we win our lives our rattled Cause the snakes come in and steal all our cattle Then it's always our faults and our parents get out the paddle You should have been here for me when I needed you Just watching my heart and emotions start bleeding through Standing doing nothing and it leads you to Just walk away cause you wouldn't stand the point of view Guess you never worried cause you said I never leave Said he'll be alright every time I was in grieve You told me you're glad I'm not like who you'll ever be But the moment I don't meet your expectations your calling me a thief It doesn't matter cause to you I was never there I could be getting kidnapped and you wouldn't care All I wanted was some love and all you had to do was share But you just kept looking away and saying life isn't fair But is that what happened in your life Is that the reason you take medication and constantly fight with your wife Is that the reason why all you ever do is fight Is that the reason why all you say to me is goodnight Then you act different in front of other people I know I always run but you still treat like I'm a illegal I'm just trying to find a safe haven that I know is peaceful Cause your words are evolving into bullets and are becoming lethal I'm sorry I don't fit your expectation of perfect I'm sorry that you never did see me as worth it I'm sorry that you have to take pills cause your wrecked But I'm sorry most of all that to you I'm just a convict, a reject I remember the days that you came into my room Acting like my therapist cause that was your role you assumed You felt it was your job to get me out of impending doom But your was just more pain that I just consumed I buried it down deep do no one could tell I went to my room with my emotions and was locked in a cell I want so badly to go to heaven cause my life felt like a hell If I was on my deathbed, you send me a card saying to get well You just wanted to clear your own consciousness You never had remorse or took advice from your subconscious I bet you hope one day I'd wake up unconscious I was already a mute so what more did you wanted You left us once, you may just do it again It's a cycle that constantly repeats and never ends I always thought I was the problem till I realized when it began But in the end we're just friends Does the word family mean anything to you? You had one job and a second chance and both of them blew The times you were actually stable were far and few But you still said everything will be alright, what's new I don't focus on the past but those thoughts still run in the back of my head Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I was actually dead If a piece of the puzzle fell off and got lost instead If I listen to those voices and the words that they said I don't know what the future holds or even tomorrow A chance to be finally happy or just more grief and sorrow Just another advantage for someone to take your heart so they could borrow Just another day that I could say I'm living hollow IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY BUT I'M JUST GETTING STARTED