Trust nobody!

Listen up as this is a true story, my life I'm living will make yours sound boring. I'm a married man of 18 years strong, but where the fuck did I go wrong? Wife always hating on me, saying "mother fucker you been cheating on me" w w w what? I have always been faithful baby, never cheated just retreating. Meaning that "I haven't had no strange in 18 years, and why do you change your anger to tears I ain't gonna leave you hanging, I will always be here." My life, my love have no fear. Shit you think you can trust somebody,.. no fucking way I can't trust nobody lately!! I think shes trying to drive me crazy!!We spit in each others face on a daily and the only time we get along is when we are between the sheets vaguely. It was just the other day we had an argument, and she jumped on me like a spider monkey pulling my hair and shit.... and it slipped I reached over her mother's shoulder and slapped the bitch. Little did I know her mama's a snitch, she called the cops and lied about it. Now I know what I did was wrong, and if you can relate then like this song or rap, or poem whatever you want to call it, but just know that I did what I did because I am sick of her shit. She says she can't lie and only speaks the truth, but she lied under oath and I have proof. That's not enough for a man to go off of, the fingers get pointed at the man and I've had enough!!! Saying that I am mentally abusive, baby if you think that is abuse then you must be illusive. I mean you do the same shit to me!!! Not to mention the names I take offensively. She knows what buttons to push because she knows me, unlike many others who have tried to fight me. She doesn't even say goodnight to me, but expects me to be there because misery loves company. C'mon stop pushing me and those buttons that belong to me!! Anyhow I left the house because I was tired of arguing, and it got physical again and its disgusting. Makes me wanna stop breathing the air I'm breathing.