venting some bars

see everythings not what it seems only havin these nightmares no longer havin dreams wishin i wouldnt wake up everytime i go to sleep and i wish someone would take this pain away from me im back to square one so i pack another bowl tryna forget, my mistakes an let um go im stuck in the past , an im losin control feelin warm on the outside but inside im froze no patience left to cling to , im hangin by thread if it wasnt for my family , i probably would be dead made my choice to listen , to every word they said wrote it down on paper ,so it all could be re read an i made dis fuckin life ,so i am forced 2 live with my choices , im just prayin to make it big so i can make doh, an give back to the kids then thry can asasinate me, like i was nipp thats the way it seems to go its a battle we cant win might as well be selfish forget where we have been cause in the end we all die no matter if we do sin its life shes a bitch will learn that in the end