its been a year

I got this thing in my mind and I think its depression fucks with me all the time tryna teach me a lesson but I dno what I done and I dno what to do all i can think of is being you if I'm not with you then i guess I gotta choose do I die tonight do I give you a surprise maybe you'll notice me if I'm not alive but I guess I got to think about my fam mu lil sister my mom and my dad bc if I die they'll think it's their fault but its not its yours you fucking whore tearing me down and breaking my heart I read all those messages it really fucking hurt, I always thought you were the love of my life but I guess not with all of ur lies, you lied and lied and lied and lied I cant even believe your eyes