lately I been impatient.. calm to the sight but inside I'm ragin.. my deepest secrets scribbled across notebook pages.. dealin with stress on top of Facebook haters.. despise that we made it, but it's a lifetime I waited perfectin my greatness... it's madness, I'm wasted pictures of folks I knew as a baby... but memories on Kodak don't do shit for me lately... life's crazy, the relationship with my babies destroyed by my lazy.. laid up in a cell... rented my space in this hell, but it's just as well.. I'll own it in time, winter time in my mind, relentless about my grind... I've cheated and lied... deceitful at times but still the r ealist alive.. concealed in these hazel eyes is anger so ruthless.. I'll admit I was foolish and my decisions were stupid... but if its over then prove it.. sad to find love you gotta lose it... onward we moving, my life like a movie...just pause for a second, shocked what it costs for respect... nobody remember Brett, no remorse n no regret... never travel this road again... this Mic is my only friend burn in both ends of the candle...... busted pictures on a mantle..... stressed out, it's been a long day.... but seems I only learn the hard way... Daddy acts strangely so Olivias angry, seems we mad bout the same thing, always remained the same me, only I play dreams rather than say things, it's really money by any means over everything, there's no apology for my mismodesty and honestly it's got to be, cause all the bullshit got to me and it's not fer me, but not defeat, I still love you, still don't judge you, still want you achievin what your dreams is, but facts are I've seen shit and it's left me with demons, blame that for my leavin, actions not matchin my preachin, so my sorrys I'll keep em and I guess we just keep on beefin... sad but the truth, I'm just your dad with no kuth, my screws loose, I stay lucid...long enough to drop a track, then it's back to the same crap, wake up and then back at it, I'm a pain addict, my strains havoc but I'm still savage so I lose baggage