missed days dedicated to Elizabeth

missed days in your life .😇 selfish reasons why blamed Me my self an i😍 didn't know at those times as I was still just a Yung man myself trying to be a dad then a man such a young age I thought I knew it all in truth I was deceived that time in my life I knew not but deceptions in greed I was an idiot at that time I was selfish I was insecure I was demented my mind was distractions when your mom push me to the side I fell into a place( depression ) my mind it was locked away I wasn't whole I wasn't even a person I was an empty shell just walking around looking for the next missteak I was an idiot at that time I was selfish I was insecure I was demented my mind was distractions make no mistake sweetheart you were never a mistake you AR the reason I breathe the reason I protect those that need I'm sorry that I didn't give you this time the plan for my life was not inline maybe in another life I'll have a second chance until then I can only dream I was an idiot at that time I was selfish I was insecure I was demented my mind was distractions I'm sorry I don't tell you enough how much I love you always I would completely understand if you were disappointed in me I never knew how to love I never knew! (until now ) it seems you make loss to Define your truth these tears in my eyes believe me do not sorrow daily reminders of the sacrifice I made that it wasn't fair for you not at all it's the reason I sing the song to let you know at least before I did I pass on at least I can give you my truth at least give you my perception I was an idiot at that time I was selfish I was insecure I was demented my mind was distractions cuz I know you have every right to be mad every right to be sad every right to want more every right to tell me why sorry wasn enough I know it's not (I know) only through my toils can I leave you the keys and give you my perceptions of Truth in hopes that it can mend the losses times we couldn't never have back only the memories of you stay warm regards to I was an idiot at that time I was selfish I was insecure I was demented my mind was distractions you already baby my one and only little girl I tried so hard to Chase what I thought was real (wrong i was )you were what I was always looking for ( yet I had it )didn't notice sorry please forgive me if not for me then for yourself when I finally found my truth so much time has passed baby at last I can find peace at last. I was an idiot at that time I was selfish I was insecure I was demented my mind was distractions I just wanted you to know the truth don't always think of me as a thug or a gangster my dying wish is you given the knowledge of who I really am why I spent my life on the master plan why I spent so much time ( not wasted ) used to save others and give them truth and knowledge through the darkest Shadows of the Night waiting till I saw the break of light the dawn has risen and with this so have. I .. I love you always blood of mine