Lately I've been feeling (Past Texts from My Exes)

Lately I've been in my feelings. I feel like I'm back in court, I need I need to start healing. I keep trying to build my fort, higher and higher. but it's useless, they scale the walls no matter how much higher. Lately I've been feeling useless, like my sister tells me I am. I believe I'm a mistake, I don't just believe, I know I am. They wouldn't call me useless if I wasn't, right. They wouldn't call me an asshole if I wasn't, right. They wouldn't hate me for nothing, right. I feel the blood rushing, but I'll feel the blood gushing, down my hands, as the cuts in my wrists open. If I wasn't a pussy I would reopen them, everyday. Until my feelings are at bay, for this is the price I pay. Lately I've been in my feelings. I feel like I'm back in court, I need I need healing. I keep trying to build my fort, higher and higher. but it's useless, they scale the walls no matter how much higher. Lately I've been feeling nothing but depression. It feels like I'm spongebob, standing at the concession, lining my oppression. I'm just putting myself in a deeper and deeper depression. One day I won't be able to go deeper, I'll be six feet under. where I'll be able to enjoy my eternal slumber, my eyes will lose the wonder, and one day a grave robber will come and plunder. If I leave, put me next to her. please sir I'm begging, let me be next to the one I love. the one that first showed me a dove. Lately I've been in my feelings. I feel like I'm back in court, I need I need healing. I keep trying to build my fort, higher and higher. but it's useless, they scale the walls no matter how much higher. Lately I've been feeling useless, good for nothing. I feel like I'm unloving. I'm not fit to be on this earth, with the rest of you, I know it sounds sad but it's true. the world would be better without me on it. I just don't fit. I feel like I'm the most useless tool in the whole kit, all I do is sit and it's never lit, and if it is I completely ruin it like everything else. Lately I've been in my feelings. I feel like I'm back in court, I need I need healing. I keep trying to build my fort, higher and higher. but it's useless, they scale the walls no matter how much higher.