just wanna b normal

words from my dad was I was burden n eber since a youngin my heart my hot hardened how can someone say they care for u but then lie to ur face hopin they turn around n sorry but it looks like it just a phase I just wanna b normal realized no one is loyal words mean nun till u c they actions seeim miserable is they satisfaction in the mirror saying who tf am i really I got faith but me living feels like a blasphemy most ppl said they cared but thats wen I'm doing well they moved away from me wen I fell looking ahead buy rememberin my past friends they all never last its just me against the wolves n alone I asked God for help n it didn't involve a loan jungle in these streets scared from my all my pain I'm lifting up with my life If i was a plane trying not to live a life of feeling guilty sometimes I walk around n just put the blame one me its feels like I'm carrying the whole world not I'm just a women who needs affection like a lil girl