that guy

what would it take . to fade away in today lose myself in these cards that have been dealt to me... so far its so hard to anni up with the dealeris hovering over me consistently. beating me ,defeating me,I'm begging pleading. please give me relief.seizethe tormenting of daily reality. dreaming is seeming a failisie. .... battling shatter the matter of factual actual spiritual gathering . whipping to my inner most core humanly possible to endure . future never getting any brighter. insightful. spiteful it appear to bring fear near from the rear clear is no where close to where i apppear to linger. a singer of blues . a bring of tunes that chin doom . rooms presume what assumes to conclude