Gambled

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Reading of the entire Ramcharitmanas to the idols of Lord Shiva and Lord Hanuman. Came a few months after I started chilling with the Lord Shiva idol. I started to take the idol for a late night walk. One night I went a little early so my auditory hallucinations suggested I go feed the idol. I went to Subway the fast food restaurant. I bought a veggie sub. Offered some to the idol. Then I ate the sub like a prasad. While in the middle of eating my auditory hallucinations suggested I take the idol to watch a Hindi film. I checked the latest show was going to start in an hour called “Total Dhamaal”. Meaning “full of fun”. Deep down I was doing an ego cancellation devotion. I didn’t have a cellphone. Two pretty girls worked at the subway fast food restaurant. Both of them an Indian. I still asked them for a cellphone so I can call myself a cab. The another girl whispered to her colleague that letting a stranger borrow her cellphone was a wrong call. Even the popcorn, chocolate and drink I offered to the idol then proceeded to have the snacks myself. After the movie ended one person from the community started a conversation with me. I had a good reputation in the community. For being a preacher but I asked him for a cellphone to call a cab for myself. I wasn’t trying to make friends with Lord Shiva through “Sakhya Bhakti”. Meaning “making God my friend”. But completely destroying my pride. For an idol of my deity and me as a devotee I gambled with my reputation.

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Amit Singh

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6 days ago

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6 days ago

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6 days ago

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