Not Yet

aye that 90s love is gone man best to forget the past and get with the times you know what I mean. no sense in wasting youre breath time or energy nah thats not how its supposed to be. love is love and im old school with it. so listen close my g. with the aspects of trust respect and loyalty cant neglect it or push away pointlessly bottle up feelings just to become astray. the love we knew is now gone forever today. there's no security in saying yes and then going trusting the process. falling in the pits. dying again with all my losses here alone again cause nobody knows how to stick with it till the end long term yeses turn to early goodbyes here I sit and stew wanting to give death another fucking try I'll hang my head later cause its not yet time to say goodbye what is it the liquor pain & Misery its a mystery that this love can crash and become fucking history. its much more than just scars on my back. but a treck through muddy puddles yet still falling through endless cracks wondering how a gun clicks and clacks loosing strength and function in every muscle loosing sight of a hustle to get myself out this god damn struggle. yet im still steps away from trouble that can keep me humble. my failure is a lesson to be learned but I learned that my heart needs to be earned im concerned cause of whats been given. cause I dont have much more to keep on fucken living.