SILENT REGRET
Sometimes it's the silence That rly get to my head I remember as a kid my mom would starve just so her kids would get fed Then today one lil argument and I said I wish she was dead I wish I could take it back but she's on her way home I'm praying to God she's makes it home witch makes me feel selfish like I just don't want the regret I hope she makes it home cuz if not that's on me cuz god only teaches lessons and sometimes the lesson is the same person throwin shadin that is family prolly has some else goin on Makin em crazy and instead of understanding what it's like to be angry and make mistakes b I say things I can't take back never til I dang bleed That's my mom my mother the one the birthed me without her I wouldn't be king it makes me cry every diss I threw her way at 16 when I was juvie every Line that hurt her cuz it was about her through the whole thing not knowing she cares she just wanted me to different sometimes I feel like I've changed into somethin better for happy then I tell my mom I hope she dies over bein blamed like why is life like a video game once you beat the game u just wanna go replay no matter ur age ik once I die I wanna die before my family cuz they had to deal wit my rave before the page and Before I aged to rap again I was only writing rhymes at 8 to 9 then I quit til I was 13 at 12 I met aron was gettin in trouble and my dad and mom always told I was gonna end up in jail or decayed And gone away I don't what do wit these days turn into dark quiet nights When the things you say hit the highway and go 900 90 mph str8 out the drive way I look at my son right now takin his nap and the diss I made on my dad tye new diss track I wrote on my mom and own fiance like what's with dad Ollie I need ur help I'm fallin hold me back daddy is dying again I wake up the water is hitting my face is my girl holdin a drink baby are u okay I just overdosed and she was worried bout my fate took My Ativan I had left popped it ready to make it end my sons a year old now he was only 4 months old witnessing a bad dad I always said I'd be better that's a lie that my fears fed but every year dreamt of being dead then I woke up again for the 6th overdoess and the 6th time Now when I lay to bed I wonder what will be next cuz it won't be pills again I say I want death I'm not scared of it I just wonder when will I get shot dead From the shit I say to pimps thugs and pricks who diss and if so I'm going out as a gift who had Regrets that would have made any man dump A whole mag and his head the amount of guilt breaking my chest
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Sometimes it's the silence That rly get to my head I remember as a kid my mom would starve just so her kids would get fed Then today one lil argument and I said I wish she was dead I wish I could take it back but she's on her way home I'm praying to God she's makes it home witch makes me feel selfish like I just don't want the regret I hope she makes it home cuz if not that's on me cuz god only teaches lessons and sometimes the lesson is the same person throwin shadin that is family prolly has some else goin on Makin em crazy and instead of understanding what it's like to be angry and make mistakes b I say things I can't take back never til I dang bleed That's my mom my mother the one the birthed me without her I wouldn't be king it makes me cry every diss I threw her way at 16 when I was juvie every Line that hurt her cuz it was about her through the whole thing not knowing she cares she just wanted me to different sometimes I feel like I've changed into somethin better for happy then I tell my mom I hope she dies over bein blamed like why is life like a video game once you beat the game u just wanna go replay no matter ur age ik once I die I wanna die before my family cuz they had to deal wit my rave before the page and Before I aged to rap again I was only writing rhymes at 8 to 9 then I quit til I was 13 at 12 I met aron was gettin in trouble and my dad and mom always told I was gonna end up in jail or decayed And gone away I don't what do wit these days turn into dark quiet nights When the things you say hit the highway and go 900 90 mph str8 out the drive way I look at my son right now takin his nap and the diss I made on my dad tye new diss track I wrote on my mom and own fiance like what's with dad Ollie I need ur help I'm fallin hold me back daddy is dying again I wake up the water is hitting my face is my girl holdin a drink baby are u okay I just overdosed and she was worried bout my fate took My Ativan I had left popped it ready to make it end my sons a year old now he was only 4 months old witnessing a bad dad I always said I'd be better that's a lie that my fears fed but every year dreamt of being dead then I woke up again for the 6th overdoess and the 6th time Now when I lay to bed I wonder what will be next cuz it won't be pills again I say I want death I'm not scared of it I just wonder when will I get shot dead From the shit I say to pimps thugs and pricks who diss and if so I'm going out as a gift who had Regrets that would have made any man dump A whole mag and his head the amount of guilt breaking my chest
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