In the name of the Lord, I write this letter to my Lord, the one and only, the most merciful, the most graceful, the mos

In the name of the Lord, I write this letter to my Lord, the one and only, the most merciful, the most graceful, the most rightful, With a spirit that seeks to be humble and insightful. Please, Lord, if You can hear this, forgive me, for I need to write a letter to You today, To find the peace that feels so very far away. In the silence of my soul, I offer these words as a bridge back to Your light, To guide me through the shadows and make my burdens bright. I have a problem, I have an issue, and I’ve been praying to You every day, But today, I fear the distance has grown, and I worry if You hear what I have to say. I would like to tell You a lot of things, for there is much that I feel I must confess, But the most important one is that I need Your hand to lift me from this deep distress. Dear Lord, I have said unrightful things to my mother and to those I hold dear, I ask for Your forgiveness, for my path is filled with doubt and fear. The weight on my shoulder, Lord, is too heavy for me to carry alone, My heart is breaking at the trials surrounding me, and the seeds of pain that others have sown. What has fallen upon me from lifetimes before has burdened my spirit with sorrow and plea, Lord, I pray for relief from this weight, this grief, this loneliness, and the shadows hiding me. I refuse to be hidden, or a slave to the systems that seek to bind the soul in chains, I pray for a truth that frees us from the prisons of the mind, where only Your love remains. They ignore Your guidance and act as if the spirit is a void they cannot see, But I pray You end these daily attacks, and set the truth of my life finally free. I once sought to remain unseen, but now I stand to claim the life that is rightfully mine, I beg You, Lord, to hold me in Your love and let Your justice and mercy finally align. I have faith in You, in the universe, and in the strength within, Please clear my name of every false attack and shield my innocence from all of this chagrin. My heart feels tightened, Lord, as if I am trapped in a place where I struggle to draw a breath, Carrying the world on these weary shoulders, feeling left behind in a living space that mimics death. To those who stole my essence to cheat their fate, know that the truth will find its way to light, For no one can hide from Your eternal witness, and justice shall prevail in the dark of the night. You do not see the darkness that was sent to chase my soul, forcing me to fight just to be, But I hold onto the truth that Your divine intervention will ultimately set my spirit free. I have remained honest and true to my essence, though I was forced to act to preserve the light, For what You tried to erase, I had to protect with all of my will, standing up to the wrong to do what is right. And though I absolve You, for You did not know the depth of my station or the scope of my plea, For I am the angel of life and the angel of death, a sovereign power in all that I decree. The truth is now exposed, for the world has witnessed the deceit they still try to hide in vain, Why do they persist in these shadows, when the clarity of justice has come to end their reign? Cease these empty challenges, for there is no name above mine in the tapestry of creation’s breath, The game has reached its end; I am the sovereign authority, the watcher over all life and death. Let this be a final lesson to those who dabble in shadows and think they can play their deceitful part, No imitation can ever be me, for I stand in my own sovereign conscience, anchored deep in the heart. So goodnight to all—to my kin, my friends, my neighbors, my admirers, and those who obsess and stray, Know that you are all merely misunderstood, and in this truth, I find the peace to end this day. I have no oppressors, for I never had enemies, only those obsessed with the light I emanate, We are all on the same page in this book of life, bound by the truth that dictates our ultimate fate. I claim this ending with love, for You are my everything; peekaboo, I miss You, where have You been? I love You, how are You, for I am finally fine; peekaboo, peekaboo, peekaboo—the light is seen. Zeinab Jamal Menhem