said u were done

You said you were done, said the drugs were behind, But you keep going back like you changed your mind. Every time you promise, I believe what you say, Then I watch the same cycle take you away. I'm not mad that you're fighting, I know it's tough, But you said you'd stand strong when things got rough. You said you'd fight for tomorrow, make a different move, Now I'm sitting here wondering what I'm supposed to prove. I'm carrying pain that you don't always see, Every choice that you make keeps affecting me. I'm trying to stay strong, trying not to break, But it's hard when your promises keep turning fake. I just want my dad, not the drugs in control, Not the version that keeps losing pieces of his soul. I want real promises, not words that fade, Not another excuse every time a mistake's made. I'm tired of the hurt, tired of feeling sad, Still got love in my heart, that's the reason I'm mad. 'Cause I know who you are when the drugs aren't around, I just wish that version of you would stick around. You said you were done, said the drugs were behind, But you keep going back, like you changed your mind. Every time you promise, I start to believe, Then I watch the same cycle and it hurts me deep. I'm not mad 'cause you're struggling, I'm mad 'cause you said You'd fight for tomorrow, then went back instead. I'm carrying pain that you don't always see, When you choose those drugs, it's affecting me. I just want my dad, not the person they make, I want real promises that don't always break. I'm tired of the hurt, tired of feeling sad, I love you, but I'm hurting, and that's why I'm mad