DND

3AM thoughts hit harder, when the room goes quiet Phone on DND, still waiting on your text back Popped two pills to sleep, dreams still feel like flashbacks Heart in my chest rattling, like drums in an empty hall Told myself I’m fine, but my voice keeps cracking Smile for the camera, eyes telling a different story Miss you like a phantom limb, ache where you used to be Pour out feelings in a cup, lean don’t fill the empty Polaroids on my wall, edges burned from the memories Play your voice notes on loop, till my battery dies too Rain on the window sounds like, codeine in the ice Numb ain’t the same as healed, but it gets me through the night Tried to write you a letter, ink ran out with the tears Promised I’d move on quick, but healing don’t work like gears Friends say “time heals wounds”, my time moves in slow-mo Every song reminds me, of the nights you stayed over demons in my head talk, like they paying rent in there I tell ‘em “shut up” softly, but they louder when I’m alone If love’s a loaded weapon, I guess we both got shot Still I keep breathing through it, ‘cause giving up ain’t an option So I’ll ride the wave down, till the tide pulls me back Write these scars to melodies, maybe they’ll turn to maps If you hear this someday, know I felt it all, true Pain made the song louder, but I’m still here making through