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[Intro – Soft Spoken] Some kids grow up with bedtime stories Some grow up learning survival This one’s for the forgotten kids… [Verse 1] Tiny shoes on a cracked-up floor Waitin’ by the window for a knock at the door Every car sound made my heart race fast Thinkin’ maybe this time somebody came back But silence raised me more than love did Learnt how to cry where nobody could notice Learnt how to smile when my chest felt hollow How to survive while fear still followed School photos with a fake little grin Teachers never asked what shape I was in Cause traumatised kids get good at disguise Lookin’ “normal” with storms in their eyes And every birthday candle felt strange Cause loss makes kids grow up with age While other children dreamt carefree dreams I was just tryna mentally breathe [Pre-Chorus] Nobody tells you how lonely it gets Being a child filled with adult stress Tryna find “home” in random places Searchin’ for love in strangers’ faces [Chorus] I grew up an orphan with a heart too old Half ice cold, half made of gold Friendly faces but the pain stayed deep Learned real young not everybody keeps And every night I prayed someone’d stay But life kept takin’ people away So if I love hard, now you know why I learnt too young people can die [Verse 2] Hand-me-down dreams and secondhand pain Tryna act tough while I’m standin’ in rain Everybody says “time heals scars” But some wounds echo straight through the heart I envied kids with stable homes Dinner table laughs and telephones Mums that listened, dads that stayed Not ghosts that slowly fade away So I became funny, loud, intense Cause humour helped me make some sense And music? Man, that became my light The only thing that hugged me at night Every lyric stitched me back together Every beat said “you won’t hurt forever” And maybe that’s why I sing so raw Cause broken kids feel songs the most [Pre-Chorus] Nobody tells you how lonely it gets When your whole childhood’s survival stress But damaged hearts still beat somehow And I’m still standin’ here right now [Chorus] I grew up an orphan with a heart too old Half ice cold, half made of gold Friendly faces but the pain stayed deep Learned real young not everybody keeps And every night I prayed someone’d stay But life kept takin’ people away So if I love hard, now you know why I learnt too young people can die [Bridge – Emotional Build] To every kid who raised themselves Who hid their pain and never asked for help Who still feels small when the room goes dark Who carries grief stitched into their heart You ain’t weak cause you hurt this way You just survived what nobody should face And one day all the love you missed Might become the love you finally give [Final Chorus – Explosive] I grew up an orphan but I’m still alive Still got songs, still got fight Still got scars that ache at night But they don’t stop me from chasing light Friendly faces with the hurt tucked deep Whole damn world can barely sleep But if you hear this and you survived too Then this broken-hearted song’s for you [Outro – Soft] Yeah… Some kids lose people… Some kids lose childhoods too