tell me why it gets so tough

tell me why it gets so tough trying to cover up my scars tell myself ive had enough trying to reach the stars what do it mean to live the dream i want to scream always stuck between the things I've seen and who i am as a human being all the trouble that shit bring how my pain remain unseen nothing is the way it seems living life in make believe try to fight try to leave lost my sight no reprieve no blessings i can recieve every step i take drags me a little bit deeper down the mistakes i make put me deeper in the ground buried in my sorrow pray someday i will be found hope for tomorrow is something hard to come by no thrill to feel anything beyond my own depression own tragedy my confession is maddening im barely getting by by the skin of my teeth im always getting high im feeling so weak i will not deny that the path that i seek is one that i cant find my vision is bleak sadness and madmess chipping away tragic this last ditch effort i make reaches the ears of somebody i pray find me im lost please i cant fade away find the words to say to convey how lonely i be i no longer know me i just wanna sleep let the darkness creep the silence is complete so sweet no voices in my head no heart beat