it’s my fault I’m so alone
Hello? Hello, Is anyone out there? Hello? Anybody? Is there anyone out there? Hello? Anyone? Please? Why am I so alone? I just need help. Omg, I’m so fucking alone, please. I am so alone, and I know it is my fault But that doesn’t take the pain away I still feel locked away inna vault solitary has damaged my brain I’ve begun starting to talk to the wall So i guess I am now insane ok, I am crazy by default I’m stuck and confined to all of these thoughts I’m Thinking of the society that I’ve lost All of the faces shrouded by the fog I can’t even just simply hear them talk I’m outside of humanity and now all of the doors have been locked My existence is really entirely gone My soul has been entirely forgotten For so fucking damn long Connection is all I want I’m seeing my childhood memories Me as a kid in school all of those friendships Its now killing me, I severed them, I defiled the damn memory they may have if they ever simply just think of me I’ve broken those connections so heavily I don’t think there is any remedy for me because of my history, I am my worst enemy, self harm is my tendency, is it my destiny and my identity, my intensity of desecrating my fucking entity, I envy my past me, but now I despise me, I really want to end me, I want to hang myself from a tree but I just don’t have the damn energy honestly, and that would mean I betrayed all of humanity because of what is inside of me, world please can you just come take it from me, then I can kill myself fully guilt fucking free, I can float away in the wind like the leaves, I can become entirely just a damn memory, what will they think of me, or will they forget me, will they at least achieve world peace and global stability from my theory of unity, will they see what was happening inside of me, what made me me, and why I was existentially and sexually in lunacy, haunted by the infinity that I thought was reality, I found stability Ina weird expression of identity, it somehow made me happy and allowed me to breathe when I was underneath the weight of everything
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Hello? Hello, Is anyone out there? Hello? Anybody? Is there anyone out there? Hello? Anyone? Please? Why am I so alone? I just need help. Omg, I’m so fucking alone, please. I am so alone, and I know it is my fault But that doesn’t take the pain away I still feel locked away inna vault solitary has damaged my brain I’ve begun starting to talk to the wall So i guess I am now insane ok, I am crazy by default I’m stuck and confined to all of these thoughts I’m Thinking of the society that I’ve lost All of the faces shrouded by the fog I can’t even just simply hear them talk I’m outside of humanity and now all of the doors have been locked My existence is really entirely gone My soul has been entirely forgotten For so fucking damn long Connection is all I want I’m seeing my childhood memories Me as a kid in school all of those friendships Its now killing me, I severed them, I defiled the damn memory they may have if they ever simply just think of me I’ve broken those connections so heavily I don’t think there is any remedy for me because of my history, I am my worst enemy, self harm is my tendency, is it my destiny and my identity, my intensity of desecrating my fucking entity, I envy my past me, but now I despise me, I really want to end me, I want to hang myself from a tree but I just don’t have the damn energy honestly, and that would mean I betrayed all of humanity because of what is inside of me, world please can you just come take it from me, then I can kill myself fully guilt fucking free, I can float away in the wind like the leaves, I can become entirely just a damn memory, what will they think of me, or will they forget me, will they at least achieve world peace and global stability from my theory of unity, will they see what was happening inside of me, what made me me, and why I was existentially and sexually in lunacy, haunted by the infinity that I thought was reality, I found stability Ina weird expression of identity, it somehow made me happy and allowed me to breathe when I was underneath the weight of everything
Amazing 💎