On the come up

On the come up I'm nervous Took a chance and it's working Hard not notice, them niggas is lurking Spiting my game, shooting my shot Scoring these hoes, they not what I thought All these opinions I walk in the room, see smiles, paper, a glock, and a pen Staring at rats, dangling chesse in my pocket Envious looks no stop.it, turning to weed, in the room,.on the call crying pushing snooze Getting closer, you keep getting closer, , so i fuck closure I'm over,all that ,you said to me Say I'm cursed, it's been worse, you're my biggest enemy Woke up dreaming, id be in a hearse Sweaty and in hurt, So, sorry mom, but I say fuck Church Seeing deals get made, and niggas being paid, by the drugs that i see, a couple of girls getting it on for a fee, in high heels, crop tops, and looks to kill, all I have to do, is throw some bills, to a me that's a killer deal it's my environment Uncle told me to be violent What if all I wanna do is play the violin You want me to talk, about all of my truma? Every Time I took a girl over to my house it caused drama, my parents kicked her out, and everytime i wanted to eat, my father said to me, "boy you better earn your keep". then he gave what little scraps he had, straight to me I ain't got it in me to envy That shit beneath me I'm just on my own road And the devil wit me Fuck all them niggas that troll They is not wit me The truth is we can't love like we used to Cause all of the love that we've seen is posted on YouTube Where's all the communication? And leaps of faith? i guess I missed that trend, And it sucks to say today, that seems like it's the only way Warmth is a concept, that I don't know The only emotion that's in me, is dying slow So, i try and try again There's a little voice in my head, saying this your end To me, that's not the best i can be If I wanna be a king, then I got to release All the bad energy Bitch i thrive in the pressure, Guess I'm always ready right? Sometimes, I'm looking for a fight Pop some pills then fall behind I'm just on my steady grind Say you hit licks You done come off some kicks Bet, you didn't watch yo six Come around my block You bound to get hit There's some niggas that I know Itchy to pull on that trigger they got Fuck around, they get hot