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What is this Make it up as I go but found out that it didn't really ring I just was being lazy go to my wife she want to go out I say okay fine we traveling now got to get the thing that we need even though it took all day and it still didn't put it together who cares though we spent time pissed off each other but still in my mind I couldn't find nobody else that I would about to be with What the hell are you talking about leaving no that's the only against the grain I'm not messing up the things that's going on in case You want to wonder I do what I do but I'm not wasting no more time trying to be with you Why cuz for the past 3 days I've been trying to get my thing and it ain't going to work for me Why because you got to go take her to work come back do what you do then I'm like okay fine well I'm not really thinking about that I'll get it off I can by myself I got two hands It ain't nothing to me really y'all You think that I'm funny and you think that I'm silly y'all or call me all types of names I ain't worried about that really why is that you know they like the pain and they like the complain about stuff that they can't control but get the ball dog then you could go or get your license man and you can leave Don't be worried about me and everything that I'm trying to be in my lifetime before I expire What you worried about me for man Go get hired so where am I put in 2 years at your job and then you can do the same thing like me it's hard not really the more you do it the better you get at it sharpen in my tool everyday for the next 20 years what can I get from that stack up my bank account my guy and get it back later on in the dividends after 20 years like I said oh you think he just got them voices in his head talking to himself out loud again bugging what the hell are you talking about now it's always something coming into the building and they hide running for me while girls that because they say that I'm trying to do what I got to do for me and mine they selfish Why does that they always try to come around can't help it when it got his hands out they slap it back I said hold on man Wait what's that You don't want to give me what I need fine I'm going to get what I got to be Why they we got to go so hard like this I'm thinking to myself I don't like this so I got to find another way to change up what I got going on for myself say what I'm thinking out loud then I put it over music What is he thinking I don't know what's his influence right in it down and my notebook my feelings catch me and my thoughts everyday what I'm dealing with like a deck of cards You know the odds is always going to be against you can't pretend to really care about nobody else's situation no one not all the gears that I've been facing pressure that they put me on the try to mow me told me how to get it together or they scold me no we got to get it then if you leave something behind don't worry about that why because in time they'll find what they was looking for and they took me for it a joke I used to smoke pop pills just for thrills riding around counterfeit bills thinking that I was crazy why cuz that because I was always outside doing everything that I was talking about in my mind wow is he really crazy is he born in the first of the month six that they gave me yeah what is this what's the others looking for his brother used to hate his mother used to hate his daddy wish they never had me it was so sad to see your tragedy happening in the family but then it had to be somebody getting a short end of the stick well it was me that they picked first out of the litter and I'm a mailman so is guaranteed I deliver